(I feel very proud to share this fantastic article. I wanted its light to be part of this Blog. The credits of the blog is to the link given below)
In 1982 I
died from terminal cancer. My condition was non-operable.
I chose
not to have chemotherapy. I was given six to eight months to live. Before this
time, I had become increasingly despondent over the nuclear crisis, the ecology
crisis, and so forth.
I came to
believe that nature had made a mistake - that we were probably a cancerous
organism on the planet. And that is what eventually killed me. Before my death,
I tried all sorts of alternative healing methods. None helped.
So I
determined that this was between me and God. I had never really considered God.
Neither was I into any kind of spirituality, but my approaching death sent me
on a quest for more information about spirituality and alternative healing. I
read various religions and philosophies. They gave hope that there was something
on the other side.
I had no
medical insurance, so my life savings went overnight on tests. Unwilling to
drag my family into this, I determined to handle this myself. I ended up in
hospice care and was blessed with an angel for my hospice caretaker, whom I
will call "Anne." She stayed with me through all that was to follow.
It lasted about eighteen months.
THE LIGHT
OF GOD
I woke up
about 4:30 am and I knew that this was it. I was going to die. I called a few
friends and said good-bye. I woke up Anne and made her promise that my dead
body would remain undisturbed for six hours, since I had read that all kinds of
interesting things happen when you die. I went back to sleep.
The next
thing I remember, I was fully aware and standing up. Yet my body was lying in
the bed. I seemed to be surrounded by darkness, yet I could see every room in
the house, and the roof, and even under the house.
A Light
shone; I turned toward it, and was aware of its similarity to what others have
described in near-death experiences. It was magnificent and tangible, alluring.
I wanted to go towards that Light like I might want to go into my ideal
mother's or father's arms. As I moved towards the Light, I knew that if I went
into the Light, I would be dead. So I said/felt, "Please wait. I would
like to talk to you before I go."
The
entire experience halted. I discovered that I was in control of the entire
experience. My request was honoured. I had conversations with the Light. That's
the best way I can describe it. The Light changed into different figures, like
Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, mandalas, archetypal images and signs. I asked in a
kind of telepathy, "What is going on here?"
The
information transmitted was that our beliefs shape the kind of feedback we
receive: If you are a Buddhist or Catholic or Fundamentalist, you get a
feedback loop of your own images. I became aware of a Higher Self matrix, a
conduit to the Source. We all have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part of our
being, a conduit. All Higher Selves are connected as one being, all humans are
connected as one being. We are literally the same being. It was the most
beautiful thing I have ever seen. It was like all the love you've every wanted,
and it was the kind of love that cures, heals, regenerates.
I was
ready to go at that time. I said "I am ready, take me." Then the
Light turned into the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen: a mandala of
human souls on this planet. I saw that we are the most beautiful creations -
elegant, exotic . . .everything. I just cannot say enough about how it changed
my opinion of human beings in an instant.
I said/thought/felt,
"Oh, God, I didn't realize." I was astonished to find that there was
no evil in any soul. People may do terrible things out of ignorance and lack,
but no soul is evil. What all people seek, what sustains them, is love, the
Light told me. What distorts people is a lack of love.
The
revelations went on and on. I asked, "Does this mean that humankind will
be saved?" Like a trumpet blast with a shower of spiraling lights, the
Light "spoke," saying, "You save, redeem and heal yourself. You
always have and always will. You were created with the power to do so from
before the beginning of the world."
In that
instant I realized that WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED; this is what the
"Second Coming" is about. I thanked the Light of God with all my
heart. The best thing I could come up with was: "Oh dear God, dear
Universe, dear Great Self, I love my Life."
The Light
seemed to breathe me in even more deeply, absorbing me. I entered into another
realm more profound than the last, and was aware of an enormous stream of
Light, vast and full, deep. I asked what it was.
The Light
answered, "This is the RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of this manna water to your
heart's content." I drank deeply, in ecstasy.
THE VOID
OF NOTHINGNESS
Suddenly
I seemed to be rocketing away from the planet on this stream of Life. I saw the
earth fly away. The solar system, whizzed by and disappeared. I flew through
the center of the galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I went. I learned that
this galaxy, and all of the Universe, is bursting with many different varieties
of life. I saw many worlds. We are not alone in this Universe.
It seemed
as if all the creations in the Universe soared past me and vanished in a speck
of Light. Almost immediately, a second Light appeared. As I passed into the
second Light, I could perceive forever, beyond Infinity. I was in the Void,
pre-Creation, the beginning of time, the first Word or vibration. I rested in
the Eye of Creation and it seemed that I touched the Face of God. It was not a
religious feeling. I was simply at One with Absolute Life and Consciousness.
It would
take me years to assimilate the Void experience. It was less than nothing yet
greater than anything. Creation is God exploring God's Self through every way
imaginable. Through every piece of hair on your head, through every leaf on
every tree, through every atom, God is exploring God's Self. I saw everything
as the Self of all. God is here. That's what it is all about.
Everything
is made of light; everything is alive.
THE LIGHT
OF LOVE
I rode
the stream directly into the center of the Light. I felt embraced by the Light
as it took me in with its breath again. And the truth was obvious that there is
no death; that nothing is born and nothing dies; that we are immortal beings,
part of a natural living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was never
told that I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was only natural,
from what I had seen.
As I
began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was I told,
that I would return to the same body. It did not matter. I had complete trust
in the Light and the Life process. As the stream merged with the great Light, I
asked never to forget the revelations and the feelings of what I had learned on
the other side.
I thought
of myself as a human again and I was happy to be that. From what I have seen, I
would be happy to be an atom in this universe. An atom. So to be the human part
of God ... this is the most fantastic blessing. It is a blessing beyond our
wildest estimation of what blessing can be. For each and every one of us to be
the human part of this experience is awesome, and magnificent. Each and every
one of us, no matter where we are, screwed up or not, is a blessing to the
planet, right where we are.
So I went
through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby somewhere. But I
reincarnated back into this body. I was so surprised when I opened my eyes, to
be back in this body, back in my room with someone looking over me, crying her
eyes out. It was "Anne," my hospice caretaker. She had found me dead
thirty minutes before.
We do not
know how long I was dead, only that she found me thirty minutes before. She had
honoured my wish to have my newly-dead body left alone. She can verify that I
really was dead. It was not a near-death experience. I believe I probably
experienced death itself for at least an hour and a half. When I awakened and
saw the light outside. Confused, I tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out
of the bed. She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and found me on the
floor.
When I
recovered, I was surprised and awed about what had happened, I had no memory at
first of the experience. I kept slipping out of this world and kept asking,
"Am I alive?" This world seemed more like a dream than that one.
Within three days, I was feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than ever
before. My memories of the journey came back later. But from my return I could
find nothing wrong with any human being I had ever seen. Previous to my death I
was judgmental, believing that people were really screwed up. Everyone but me.
About
three months later a friend said I should get tested for the cancer, so I got
the scans and so forth. I felt healthy. I still remember the doctor at the
clinic looking at the "before" and "after" scans. He said,
"I can find no sign of cancer now."
"A
miracle?" I asked.
"No,"
he answered. These things happen . . . spontaneous remission." He seemed
unimpressed. But I was impressed, and knew it was a miracle.
LESSONS
LEARNED
The Great
Mystery of life has little to do with intelligence. The universe is not an
intellectual process. The intellect is helpful; but our hearts are the wiser
part of ourselves.
Since my
return I have experienced the Light spontaneously, and I have learned how to
get to that space almost any time in my meditation. You can also do this. You
do not have to die first. You are wired for it already.
The body
is the most magnificent Light being there is. The body is a universe of
incredible Light. Spirit is not pushing us to dissolve this body. We don't need
to commune with God; God is communing with us in every moment.
I asked
God: "What is the best religion on the planet? Which one is
right?"
God said
with great love: "I don't care."
What an
incredible grace. It does not matter what religion we are. Religions come and
they go, they change. Buddhism has not been here forever, Catholicism has not
been here forever, and they are all about to become more enlightened. More
light is coming into all systems now.
Many will
resist and fight about it, one religion against the next, believing that only
they are right. When Godhead said, "I don't care," I understood that
it is for us to care about, because we are the caring beings. The Source does
not care if you are Protestant, Buddhist, or Jew. Each is a reflection, a facet
of the whole. I wish that all religions would realize it and let each other be.
It is not the end of separate religions, but live and let live. Each has a
different view. And it all adds up to the big picture.
I went
over to the other side with a lot of fears about toxic waste, nuclear missiles,
the population explosion, the rain forest. I came back loving every single
problem. I love nuclear waste. I love the mushroom cloud; this is the holiest
mandala that we have manifested to date, as an archetype. More than any
religion or philosophy on earth, that terrible, wonderful cloud brought us together
all of a sudden, to a new level of consciousness.
Knowing
that maybe we can blow up the planet fifty times, or 500 times, we finally
realize that maybe we are all here together now. For a period they had to keep
setting off more bombs to get it in to us.Then we started saying, "we do
not need this any more." Now we are actually in a safer world than we have
ever been in, and it is going to get safer. So I came back loving toxic waste,
because it brought us together.
These
things are so big.
Clearing
of the rain forest will slow down, and in fifty years there will be more trees
on the planet than in a long time. If you are into ecology, go for it; you are
that part of the system that is becoming aware. Go for it with all your might,
but do not be depressed or disheartened. Earth is in the process of domesticating
itself and we are cells on that Body.
Population
increase is getting very close to the optimal range of energy to cause a shift
in consciousness. That shift in consciousness will change politics, money,
energy.
What
happens when we dream? We are multi-dimensional beings. We can access that
through lucid dreaming. In fact, this universe is God's dream. One of the
things that I saw is that we humans are a speck on a planet that is a speck in
a galaxy that is a speck. Those are giant systems out there, and we are in sort
of an average system. But human beings are already legendary throughout the
cosmos of consciousness.
The
little bitty human being of Earth/Gaia is legendary. One of the things that we
are legendary for is dreaming. We are legendary dreamers. In fact, the whole
cosmos has been looking for the meaning of life, the meaning of it all. And it
was the little dreamer who came up with the best answer ever. We dreamed it up.
So dreams are important.
After
dying and coming back, I really respect life and death. In our DNA experiments
we may have opened the door to a great secret. Soon we will be able to live as
long as we want to live in this body. After living 150 years or so, there will
be an intuitive soul sense that you will want to change channels. Living
forever in one body is not as creative as reincarnation, as transferring energy
in this fantastic vortex of energy that we are in. We are actually going to see
the wisdom of life and death, and enjoy it. As it is now, we have already been
alive forever.
Here's to
life! Here's to death! Here's to it all!
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