I have had some remarkable dreams through life.. from Divine visitations, to vivid experience of other realms, to extraordinary tactile human experiences. Each left a mark on my journey.
A few nights back I had a unique dream experience, which i felt was worth sharing.
The dream was an experience that I am sure was meant to help me realise and awaken.
Now to describe what transpired in detail, I am at a loss. The dream occurred to me during the Brahmamuhurat hour. When the alarm rang, I realised that I am in a dream state and about to wake up, so I desperately gathered all I could from the fleeting dream experience.
As I awakened, the details of the dream that I was living just a few seconds back, was mostly erased. The only thing I was able to carry back with me was an overwhelming impression of one thing:
A sense of Freedom.
From that feeling of freedom, I could recall faint impressions of what the dream had been.
I was in the company of some strangers, a lady primarily amongst them, who are fully aware of me, my nature, my burdens, my limitations and we interact with such completeness and lightness of being that it felt profoundly liberating, I felt freed me from myself.
The experience was simple, and of causeless joy… the exuberance of being - pure, free, unburdened. We did ordinary human things, yet everything felt meaningful, playful, alive in a whole new way. Freedom, such as I have never imagined possible.
Just before waking, I recall us playing an outlandish game in the waters with such joyous participation as if we were little children. Swami says, “Life is a game, play it.” They were helping me experience what it means to really live. Their presence dissolved my bindings and conditionings that limit me.
The alarm rang and sadly I woke to our reality.
Upon awakening the first thing I do is to bow to my Gurus and Divine Mother and in that moment, a realization dawned that perhaps this dream was how it was suppose to be for all of us, but we collectively messed it up. Perhaps thats what is meant by 'fall from the Garden of Eden.'
In my life, through spiritual circles and the film industry, I have known many people who are rich, powerful, famous, beautiful, intelligent, people to who life is extremely generous in many ways. But I cannot truly recall anyone who possesses that freedom. The joy and happiness most people carry is painfully conditional and terribly fragile.
While a few people come to mind who perhaps express an iota of that freedom, the only Being I have personally witnessed embodying such freedom in its fullness is Swami.
A realisation dawned that i too have lived my life in some form of self bondage - karmic, psychological, emotional, societal. And while it fulfils a karmic debt, it hasnt served me evolve.
The words of Sadhguru came to mind -
“What happens in the outside world, you cannot always control. But what happens to this one (Yourself), you can fully control. If you have control over yourself, would you choose to be miserable or pleasant?”
This simple statement hit a new depth in me.
Most of us are not living this way at all.
Not because it is impossible.
Not because it is impractical.
But because we have surrendered our inner freedom and subscribed to the endless opinions, expectations, and noise of the world.
That is the fundamental Human tragedy.
I prayed for the blessing that what life I have left, I strive to reclaim that freedom or die trying.
